A movie about guys like me. I never was a "Baxter" ...until one day I woke up and realized that I had become one. At some point it happens. I definitely relate to the "Baxter" in this movie, Elliot Sherman; and I can definitely see myself falling in love with someone like Cecil Mills. I highly recommend this movie to single 30 somethings.
Beck had to do wild songs by himself to get noticed. I did the same thing differently. I made a pop album (in my style) to get noticed. (Still not quite sure if it worked.)
Once Beck got noticed he was able to eventually get to do songs he always wanted to do like this one off his 2002 album Sea Change. I only pray that everything works as well for me (if not better)!
Okay, I've contacted Sub Pop. I don't know why it has taken me so long to do this.They are really a more perfect fit for me than Def Jam or Island (sorry guys, you took too long to get back to me).
I hope I hear back sooner this time around. ...you know, it would be fun to be on the same label that inspired me to become a musician and do things my way more than 15 years ago! Of course, this is me trying to be positive. I've been rejected in one form or another for a long time now. It's hard to keep picking myself up and going for it again.
It has now been three and a half months since I went to the Def Jam/ Island Records music showcase. I still have not heard back from anyone even though they said they would contact me. ....I don't know what to think. I just don't. I believe I'm really good, and I would only be better with the help of professionals. And, I know my sound is different, but I'm sure it has high market ability in Europe.
There have been times when I have felt like giving up, but I can't give up now. Not when I am this close. It has been hard though, to keep hanging on; and going through the same hard routine day in and day out, hoping against hope that it is just a matter of time. In trying to stay focused and positive I have been envisioning what I want.
This is what I see:
I quit my job as a janitor.
I am recording my first album with Island Records.
I am doing studio and production work for Def Jam.
I have the same producer that My Bloody Valentine had (and that Nine Inch Nails had on "The Fragile").
I am touring all over the world but primarily Europe promoting my new album.
I have multiple hit songs on the radio and music videos on MTV Europe and elsewhere.
I went to the dentist and didn't get turned away because I didn't have enough money.
I bought a car so I wouldn't have to borrow one anymore.
I hired a caregiver to help my disabled mom while I am gone on tour, and recording, and being busy with my career.
I am not a one hit wonder.
I have a life long career doing what I love.
I continue to use what I have been blessed with to bless others, but in even greater ways than before.
Those thoughts (and more personal ones) are what keep me going on. I know it will happen! It has to happen!
